Every day, I have to pretend I'm okay, that everything is fine, the way it should be.
In front of the world, I'm the sweet, happy, bubbly girl that gets along with everyone. The girl who always does well academically and the girl who never goes out of line. The girl who has everything going for her, a good chance of a bright future.
Yet the truth is a lot darker. This girl is lost in a maze of confusion, sadness, terror, frustration and loneliness. She can never take any of her friends into confidence, never even hint at anyone that all is not how it should be.
She can never tell them that she has no one in the world to fall back to, no support from anyone who claims to support her, no love from people who should love her.
She can never trust anyone, let them close enough to notice that she is wearing a mask; a mask of happiness.
A mask that I fear I will have to wear for the rest of my life...
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In front of the world, I'm the sweet, happy, bubbly girl that gets along with everyone. The girl who always does well academically and the girl who never goes out of line. The girl who has everything going for her, a good chance of a bright future.
Yet the truth is a lot darker. This girl is lost in a maze of confusion, sadness, terror, frustration and loneliness. She can never take any of her friends into confidence, never even hint at anyone that all is not how it should be.
She can never tell them that she has no one in the world to fall back to, no support from anyone who claims to support her, no love from people who should love her.
She can never trust anyone, let them close enough to notice that she is wearing a mask; a mask of happiness.
A mask that I fear I will have to wear for the rest of my life...
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